Long Run

Well, I was supposed to do the week's long run on Saturday - but I drank Friday night, so that didn't happen. Then I was going to do it yesterday - but I didn't move my butt off of the couch all day, so again, it didn't happen. So, today I got up earlier than usual and did my 5 miles on the treadmill. Good news and bad news - the Good news is that it is getting easier for me to get back into running the 3 miles that I had been very comfortable with before I took of the month of December. The bad news is that 5 miles was a lot harder than I would have liked it to have been. It is really hard for me to believe at this point that I am actually going to be able to run 13 miles in a few short months. I know there is plenty of time and I am following a training program, I just wish that I wasn't feeling like it is so hard. Anyways, enough complaining.

I also came to a couple realizations this weekend:

1) I seriously need to either not drink or learn to control myself a little better when I do drink. I have gone a bit crazy ("meeting" men) at bars the last several times I have gone out. I realize why I am doing it - I finally have some confidence and feel good enough about myself to talk to random guys at bars. I think it is great that I can finally attract a guy out at a bar, but I need to learn to control myself better.

2) I am tired of living alone. I am tired of coming home from work (or being home on the weekend) and having nobody to talk to. I am not sure what to do about this, or if I can really do anything. I thought about maybe moving back to my hometown to be closer to my family - but then I would just be close to family without friends nearby. (plus I think some distance from the family keeps me sane).